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It’s 4:52am and I have been up awake for the last hour. It’s now Valentine’s Day; a commercial holiday I no longer care for. I’m sure I would feel differently if I had a man in my life lol oh well!

The past 4 years have been nothing but struggle! Let me take you back to March 2006; I had just given birth to my son. I was a single mother on workers compensation (I tore my acl at work) and things were just rough. My son’s father decided he wasn’t going to be involved when I was 6 months pregnant. It hurt but I had no choice but to suck it up and deal with it. I NEVER thought he would do that. Don’t punish the child because you don’t want to be with the mother! He honestly doesn’t have one good reason as to why he is not involved in his son’s life. JERK!

By the end of 2006, I’m working again and things are starting to look good! I have a steady job and doing my thing. I bought a car and moved into my own apartment by the end of 2007. I’m in the groove, thinking I’m good. I can sit back and just enjoy what I have with my son. Second quarter 2008, there was a 5% pay cut at work. Wow! Now I’m really STRUGGLING! I have a car note, rent, utilities, health insurance for my son, car insurance, and day care; it’s getting harder to keep up with the bills by myself. Damn, here comes another pay cut! You can’t be serious! Now there is no way I can pay all the bills! Car….gone! Apartment….gone!

Forced to move back in with my mom by the end of 2008, I figure I could stay with her and save money to get my own. 2 months after moving back to my mom’s I was laid off from my job. It was January 2009. I’m at my wit’s end! I don’t know what to do. I know I can get unemployment, but there’s no way I’ll ever be able to get back out there with that little bit of money! There are no jobs, so I re-enroll in school to obtain a Certificate of Proficiency for Medical Office Assistant and an A.A.S for Administrative Professional. I’m in my third semester, I’ve been doing great in all my classes! I can’t wait to finish, it will be a huge accomplishment for me.

It’s February 2010 and I recently signed the lease to my apartment! Just me and my son! I’ve worked out a budget and it works for me. I’m starting off small, you have to crawl before you walk. I want to do things right.

me and my son

I need stability for my son and that’s exactly what I plan on giving him. I want to give him the best life that I can! He is EVERYTHING to me! My motivation to always strive to do better! It’s because of him that I know one day we’ll be fine again!